A Flickering of the Flame
Author: Orrymain
Category: Pre-Slash, Drama, Angst, Missing Scene/Epilogue
Pairing: Jack/Daniel ... and it's all J/D
Rating: PG-13
Season: 1 - June 3-17, 1997
Spoilers: Cold Lazarus (minor), Brief Candle
Size: 98kb
Written: November 19-26,28, December 1-3, 2007
Summary: When Jack suddenly grows old, Daniel must deal with yet
another loss in his life.
Disclaimer: Usual disclaimers -- not mine, wish they were,
especially Daniel, and Jack, too, but they aren't. A gal can
dream though!
Notes:
1) Silent, unspoken thoughts by various characters are indicated with ~
in front and behind them, such as ~Where am I?~
2) This fic stands alone, but it does reference my other fic(s),
“Letting Go”
3) Thanks to my betas who always make my fics better: Jo, Linda,
Tonya, Carol, Claudia!
A Flickering of the Flame
by Orrymain
Daniel smiled as his teammates assembled in the gate room.
“What are you smiling at?” Jack asked.
“You're wearing a boonie again,” the archaeologist mused.
“You don't own the patent, you know,” the colonel replied, looking a
little embarrassed as he adjusted the green head covering. As the
wormhole opened, he ordered, “Let's move out.”
SG-1 stepped through the Stargate and began surveying the room they had
just arrived in. As they walked down the many steps from the
platform to the floor, Jack noticed a large stone statue of a warrior
standing in a chariot resting between two winged horses. He was
holding a lightning bolt, as if he were about to throw it.
Waving his arm at the statue, Jack questioned, “And who might this be,
Daniel?”
“I'm not sure. Maybe early Greek, but I don't recognize the god
form,” the archaeologist answered.
Suddenly, the team heard a woman screaming and exchanged concerned
glances. Using hand signals, Jack directed his teammates to move
cautiously in the direction of the sound, prepared to attack and defend
should it be necessary. Fortunately, it wasn't. The
screaming turned out to be coming from a young woman, apparently in
labor. The man, who was bent down by the woman, looked up at the
Tau'ri. He was panicked, both by the impending birth of the child
and the appearance of the strangers.
“Sorry. We, we ... we didn't mean to scare anyone,” Daniel spoke,
hoping that the people before them would understand the tone of his
voice if not the words.
“You are not Pelops,” the young man, who was dressed in a purple toga
with a wreath of leaves around his head, stated.
“No ... no, uh ...” Daniel responded. Pointing to the statue, he
asked, “You mean him? Uh, no. We're, we're visitors;
friends.”
When the woman panted that the child was about to be born, the panicked
man explained that the midwife was gone, and he didn't know what to
do. He pleaded for help from the strangers.
“Um, okay, well, I'll ... try,” Daniel stated hesitantly after everyone
else had just shrugged helplessly. “Sam?”
“I can help, but that's it.”
“I wish Janet was here,” Daniel spoke as he walked forward and knelt
down. “Uh, hello. I'm Daniel. This is Captain
Carter,” he introduced, pointing at Sam. He looked up and to his
right and said, “That's Jack, and he's Teal'c. We're from
Earth. We ...”
“Daniel, I think that can wait,” Jack interjected, motioning towards
the grimacing woman.
“Uh, yeah, right.”
“I am Alekos, and this is my wife, Thetys.”
“Hello,” Daniel stated again, a warm smile on his face.
As the woman screamed out after another contraction, Jack pointed to a
place beyond the columns that separated the impromptu maternity ward
from the rest of the temple, and said, “I'll just ... wait out there.”
“I will assist O'Neill,” the strong Jaffa stated.
Sam watched the two teammates leave and shook her head.
“What?” Daniel asked.
“Oh, nothing, but ... the colonel and Teal'c ... I don't think they
want to be anywhere near this room right now,” Sam confided.
“Neither do I,” Daniel admitted. Seeing the pregnant lady's
frightened look, he reassured, “I mean, I'm glad I'm here to help.”
“I will wait with the others,” Alekos said, giving his wife a kiss
before walking out.
Sam rolled her eyes, and Daniel just shrugged.
====
Bent over the laboring woman, Daniel comforted, “You're doing just
fine.”
“Where did you learn how to do this?” Sam asked in a panicked state as
she remained kneeling down beside Daniel.
“Uh ... uh, on a dig in the Yucatan. Um, after the first one, I
made friends with the local midwives, and they taught me a lot.”
Encouraged, the blonde captain questioned, “How many babies have you
delivered?”
“Uh ...two,” Daniel answered. A bit uncomfortably, he clarified,
“Uh, counting today.”
Sam's eyes widened. That wasn't what she wanted to hear.
====
“Alekos,” Daniel called out a bit later. “It's a boy.”
The happy father grabbed Daniel's shoulders and pulled him in for an
excited hug, after which he went to see his wife and newborn son.
With a smile, Jack looked at Daniel and praised, “You never cease to
amaze me with all your talents.”
“Thank you,” Daniel acknowledged. Looking around the room, which
he realized now was a temple, he commented, “Wow, this ... place is
incredible. It's like we just ... stepped into the citadel at
Mycenae.”
“Thought you said it was Greek?” Jack inquired.
“Oh, uh ... Mycenae was an ancient city in the southern Peloponnesus
region.”
“Where's that?”
With a little smile, the archaeologist answered, “Greece.”
Shaking his head, the colonel questioned, “Why do I do that?”
Just then, Alekos and Thetys walked up to the men. Sam called
out, concerned that Thetys was walking around so soon after giving
birth.
Laughing the woman assured, “I'm fine. I'm fine. We wish
for you all to be the first to see ...”
Thetys held her baby out towards Daniel and pulled back the blanket
covering him. On his arm is a small pyramid-shaped mark, which
the couple explained would bring the child luck. They then
announced they were naming the baby Dan-el, in Daniel's honor.
An embarrassed Daniel responded, “Oh, you don't have to do that.”
Ignoring the comment, Thetys asked, “May we offer you the hospitality
of our village?”
“Well, that'd be nice,” Jack responded. “Who are you folks?”
“We are the Chosen,” Alekos answered.
“Where do the gods reside?” Teal'c asked.
“Doesn't everyone know?” Alekos questioned in reply.
“In the sky, of course,” Thetys stated, a big smile on her face.
“Of course,” Daniel agreed, smiling. As they began walking, he
asked, “What do you call this place?”
“This is Argos,” Alekos answered. “You are welcome to stay with
us for as long as you wish.”
“Thank you,” Daniel replied with an appreciative nod.
====
“Wow,” Daniel expressed as he followed Alekos and his family outside
and took in the picturesque setting.
Looking back at the temple that SG-1 had just exited, Sam commented, “A
temple on the beach. I like that.”
“Temple-side resort,” Jack chortled.
“It's, uh, beautiful,” Daniel added, looking off at the blue waters and
then down at the familiar sandy substance he was walking on. ~Not
as smooth as Abydos.~
The village was roughly a quarter-of-a-mile from the temple, and as the
group got closer, they could see the excitement building on the faces
of the inhabitants as they saw Alekos and Thetys approaching with their
newborn.
Once they'd reached their friends, the couple showed off the baby,
prompting the beginning of a special celebration as all were joyous
over their new addition. No one seemed the least bit alarmed
about SG-1, welcoming them as the festivities broke out.
SG-1 sat down on the bench that circled a fountain in the center of the
village and watched the party unfold, observing the residents
curiously. Most of the villagers were wearing some kind of
colorful toga, with wreaths adorning their heads, and all were young,
beautiful or handsome, and healthy. One female in particular
caught Jack’s eye: a tall brunette, who was gazing flirtatiously at
him. He continued looking at her while talking with his teammates
about the people on the planet.
~Whoa! Here she comes,~ Jack thought as the woman suddenly walked
towards him.
“I am Kynthia. Welcome to our village,” the woman spoke.
“Thank you. Jack O'Neill,” the colonel stated.
Kynthia smiled and uncovered the dish she'd carried over with
her. It held a cake, which she offered to Jack. He quickly
took a piece and bit into it.
“It is pleasing?” Kynthia asked hopefully.
Nodding slightly, Jack affirmed, “Very.” He looked at the
archaeologist and suggested, “You should have some of it.”
As Daniel reached out to take a piece, Kynthia pulled back, firmly
telling Jack, “It is only for you.”
Sam laughed, realizing the woman hadn't even looked at Daniel at
all. She had eyes only for Jack O'Neill.
“Only for me?” Jack asked. He took the food, smiling and nodding
while saying, “Thank you.”
Kynthia ambled away, joining her friends, the group resembling a bunch
of gaggling geese with Kynthia continuing to give Jack flirtatious
glances.
Amused, Daniel smirked, “It is only for you.”
“I think you have a fan, Colonel,” Sam stated with a grin.
“I believe this woman wishes to spend time with O'Neill,” Teal'c
surmised.
“Thank you, Teal'c,” Jack responded while still eating the cake.
As the team continued to talk, Jack continued to eat the cake given to
him by the young woman.
~What's he doing?~ Daniel thought, noticing that the colonel was
holding the cake in an odd manner, almost dropping it.
Jack's vision began to blur, and he seemed to find everything
funny. All of a sudden, Kynthia's friends walked over to the
colonel, pulling him to his feet. To the team's surprise, he let
himself be pulled away.
~I'm not sure that's a good idea,~ the archaeologist thought as he,
Sam, and Teal'c all stood and attempted to follow Jack. ~What?~
he thought when a blonde Argosian gently pushed him back and urged him
to sit down. The same thing had happened to Sam and Teal'c.
He looked down at the woman, wanting to ask questions about what was
happening when, all of a sudden, loud music began to play.
~What's going on?~
Unsure about the unfolding events, Daniel, Sam, and Teal'c watched as
Jack, now seated on a bench several feet away from them, became the
object of a ritualistic dance performed by Kynthia.
Kynthia was now draped in a long, sheer, sleeveless robe that, when
spread wide, gave off the appearance of her being a butterfly.
She danced seductively towards the unusually happy colonel. At
the climax of the dance, she bent down in front of Jack, wrapping the
wings of her dress around him and then shimmying downward. As she
stood, she pulled him up and led him into a nearby building, while
villagers laughed and celebrated joyously.
~Okay, that's not right,~ Daniel thought, standing up, as did Sam and
Teal'c.
Alekos approached the three and said, “Unto every man the creator gives
one hundred blissful days. It is a sin not to celebrate each and
every one.”
“A hundred day celebration?” Daniel questioned. Taking a breath,
he supposed, “Guess we should pace ourselves.”
“I'm going to look around a little,” Sam stated.
“As am I,” the Jaffa added.
“I'm ... gonna talk to them and see what I can find out,” the
archaeologist said, smiling down at the young woman who seemed to have
a fondness for placing her hand on his knee.
“Good luck,” Sam said with amusement as she stood and walked away, with
Teal'c rising and following close behind.
“Hello,” Daniel said to the woman, a nervous smile on his face as he
began his interviews.
====
“I don't like it, Daniel,” Sam said later that afternoon.
“Every time we try to go near that building, they stop us; they give us
a drink or something to eat,” Daniel stated. He glanced back
towards the place where he'd last seen his friend, stating, “It's not
like Jack.”
“They don't seem hostile, but ...”
“But ... what is Jack ...” Daniel paused, smiling
nervously. They all knew exactly what Jack was doing with Kynthia
inside the building. “Never mind.”
“What are we going to put in our reports?” Sam wondered.
“I think I'll write mine in Egyptian,” the linguist quipped. ~I
really don't even want to think about it.~
“Wish I could,” Sam lamented, sighing as she looked down.
“You're ... disappointed,” Daniel observed.
“Daniel, we're on a mission. The colonel is Special Ops. I
can't believe he's engaging in a ... a ...”
“Afternoon romp?”
Sam shrugged and said, “I guess I did expect more from him.
Didn't you?”
“Uh ... I can honestly say I haven't spent a lot of time thinking about
who ... or when he ... uh, you know,” Daniel expressed a tad
nervously. ~But I'm not sure we should have let it happen.~
“I didn't mean to say I did; I mean ...”
“Sam, it's ...” Daniel paused, walking forward a few steps.
“What's, uh ... happening?”
“Good question,” Sam said. An alarm had begun to sound, resulting
in several of the villagers going inside buildings and others finding
comfortable spots elsewhere to lie down. As Teal'c approached,
she asked, “Teal'c, do you know what's going on?”
“I do not,” the Jaffa answered.
Daniel looked up, observing, “The sun just set.”
“Uh, excuse me?” Sam called out to one villager, who had curled up on a
bench, only to get no response.
Having checked two other villagers, the archaeologist stood up, saying,
“They're all ... asleep.” He looked over towards the building
Jack was in. “Jack.”
With a look over at his teammates, Daniel motioned towards the
building. Quickly, the three SG-1 members hurried to check on the
colonel.
--
About the same time, Jack came to his senses and realized he was atop a
very serene, but out of it, Kynthia, who did nothing but smile at
him. As the alarm sounded, he looked with surprise as others
entered the building and began to lie down. Quickly, he pulled a
blanket over his naked body. Confused, he turned back to Kynthia,
only to discover she, too, was now asleep. Even more uncertain,
he wrapped the covering around himself more firmly and stood, walking
around the building. Then he saw his teammates walk in.
“Um ... what happened?” Jack asked.
Looking at him, Sam answered, “To them or ... you?”
“We'll talk about that later,” Jack said. ~Over my dead body,
that is.~
“I've seen parties end abruptly, but never like this,” Sam stated and
then bent over to check on Thetys and Dan-el.
“They all just ... collapsed,” Daniel informed.
As the team continued to discuss the situation, Jack sat down and
questioned, “How does an entire village pass out? Something in
the food?” while he drank out of a goblet.
“We all partook of the same food,” Teal'c responded.
“Except for that cake,” Sam noted.
“Which was 'only for you',” Daniel pointed out slowly as he walked
towards Jack with a growing concern for his welfare.
In a flash, Jack realized he'd been drugged and immediately put down
the goblet. Quickly, he stood and headed for the bed Kynthia was
on.
“Whoa!” the colonel exclaimed as he collapsed to his knees and began to
pass out.
Sam caught Jack, after which Daniel pushed by her, grabbing Jack on the
other side, preventing him from hitting the floor face-first.
Just before passing out, Jack quipped, “From now on, we stick to
rations.”
After she and Daniel lowered their commanding officer to the floor, Sam
sighed, “No fever, shallow breathing, slow heartbeat: just like the
others.”
Daniel was frustrated. The mystery was actually intriguing, but
he wasn't happy about Jack's involuntary involvement in it.
“Well, let's look around. Maybe we can find out something while
they're all ... asleep,” Sam suggested.
“Right.”
====
Daniel sat on the floor, his back against the wall, staring straight
ahead where Jack was sleeping on the bed, having been placed there by
Teal'c and Daniel earlier. He looked off to the side, seeing Sam
asleep. He knew Teal'c was outside, walking around.
Quietly, he reached into his backpack and pulled out his journal.
Looking again at Jack, he sighed and began to write.
//Excerpt from Daniel's Journal//
On Earth, it's a cultural dilemma. Women are wrongly labeled as
the weaker sex, taken advantage of by their predators -- man. I
can attest from personal experience, that I'd just as soon forget
about, that that isn't always the case. I'm used to it now.
I know what's it like to be in unpleasant situations, but I'm worried
about Jack.
Jack O'Neill: macho military maestro of sarcasm and wit. Will
that save you, Jack, from what happened here tonight?
We don't know the whole story yet, but the colonel was drugged and
seduced, which in reality amounts to rape. I'm still getting to
know this man of secrets, but I already know him well enough to know
that he won't admit to any pain. He'll cover it up with bravado
and probably refuse to acknowledge that it was anything other than sex
between two consenting adults.
After all, she's a pretty woman, and it's certainly not inconceivable
that he might willingly have chosen to sleep with her; but free will is
the key, isn't it? Like the others we've met here, she's even
innocent. He'll use that, too, and claim her innocence wipes away
the act.
We're strangers here, and, even if what happened was part of some local
custom or tradition, she has to know we're outsiders and unaware of
their ways. I guess I'm feeling a little angry about what
happened.
Okay, maybe I'm a lot angry about it. He's my friend, and he's
been taken advantage of, but I have to forget about that and focus on
the mission. Still, men like Jack bury their nightmares.
Maybe that's why we're friends. I bury mine, too. We're not
supposed to have the same nightmares; not this one, anyway.
I look over at him, sleeping peacefully, and wonder if he's dreaming
about Sara, his wife. He loves her. He doesn't talk about
her much, or their marriage, but they are still married, and I catch
him staring at her picture sometimes when he thinks no one is
watching. Has Kynthia made a reunion between them impossible?
Jack won't admit to feeling guilty. He'll take this in stride and
blow it off as nothing, but I, of all people, do know what he's
feeling. The perspective may be different, but I understand.
I can't help feeling guilty about what happened. I let Kynthia
lead him away from us. I knew something was off, but I didn't
stop him. I noticed something almost right away: the way Jack was
holding that cake plate and the way he was laughing. It just
wasn't like him. Why didn't I stop him? I don't know, and
my failure to save Jack will always be with me. It's my
fault. All I had to do was stop him from going inside that
building. It would have been so easy. Why didn't I?
Why?
I'm part of SG-1. That means something. He counts on me to
cover his six, but what did I do? I got lost in studying a new
culture, talking to the villagers. I gave him a passing
thought. Okay, I worried, but I didn't act. I let him go
through a nightmare because I didn't want to offend these people.
That's the truth, and it's a truth I'll have to live with for the rest
of my life.
//End of Excerpt//
Daniel closed his journal, folded his arms on his knees, the journal
still grasped in his right hand, and leaned his head against his
arms. He felt so much remorse over his inaction. Jack had
been hurt, all because of his failure to be a good teammate. He
peeked up for a moment, staring at his sleeping friend.
“I'm sorry, Jack.”
====
The next morning, the villagers awoke and went about their
business. Daniel took the opportunity to speak with more of the
villagers, while Sam wrote down some observations in her notebook and
Teal'c simply watched over the happenings. Jack woke a bit later,
not used to the experience, and appeared hung over as he went to the
fountain and immersed his head into the water as a remedy for his
sluggishness.
After hearing what his team knew of the mystery slumber, which wasn't
much, Jack ordered Daniel to go back to the temple and see if he could
learn anything more there, while Sam continued to question the
villagers.
The archaeologist asked Alekos to accompany him and Teal'c to the
temple, which he did. Once there, Daniel used his digital camera
to film most of it as they talked.
Alekos revealed that the statue was of Pelops, “giver of days,” and
that the temple was where he'd lived when he was on the planet.
No one knew when Pelops would return, but the villagers were certain he
would. Until then, it was their duty to rejoice and wait.
“Why are your people called the Chosen?” Teal'c inquired.
Pointing towards a mural on the wall, Alekos answered, “My ancestors
were so beloved by Pelops that he fashioned this garden for us.
It is said he chose us and brought us here from beyond the stars.”
When Daniel asked about the temple writings, Teal'c revealed that the
symbols on the base of the statue were an obscure Goa'uld dialect.
A bit frustrated, Daniel questioned, “Why didn't you tell me that
before?”
“You never before inquired,” Teal'c answered calmly.
“Well ... you call it Goa'uld. Um, I call it linear A
script. We found pictographs like this in ancient Greece and
ancient Cretan, but we ... we never completely deciphered this form.”
“The symbols are a sequence,” the Jaffa announced.
“What? Like a combination?” Daniel questioned.
Before the archaeologist could answer the Jaffa's question about what a
combination was, Teal'c had opened a drawer at the bottom of the statue
to reveal an embedded small triangular tablet and a Goa'uld
device. Glancing at it, Daniel could tell that it was a record of
some type, but it was difficult to decipher.
====
Meanwhile, Sam had found a shell that she wanted to give to the baby,
Dan-el, to use as a rattle. She was shocked to see that,
overnight, the baby had grown and looked to be about two.
“Okay. That's not possible,” Jack stated when confronted with the
discovery.
“Do you not have children who change and ... and grow?” Thetys
inquired, wondering why the visitors found the baby's growth to be so
strange.
“Well, yeah, sure we do; but not like that,” Jack answered.
A few more questions later, SG-1 had finally discovered that the
villagers lived their lives in days, not years. Thetys was
twenty-one days old and Kynthia thirty-one.
~Great. I had sex with a ... with I don't even know what,~ Jack
growled inwardly.
====
A bit later, Daniel, Sam, and Teal'c were sitting on the floor in front
of Pelops statue discussing the unusually short lives of the planet's
inhabitants. Daniel had various papers and a book strewn out in
front of him as they talked.
“I think Pelops brought humans here to be lab rats. From what
we've been able to translate so far, he wanted to know how humans
evolve, so he shortened their life span to about 1/250th of normal,”
Daniel reported.
“So, instead of having to wait a hundred-thousand years to see how
human physiology evolves, he could do it in a hundred?” Sam responded.
“That is correct,” Teal'c confirmed. “Pelops wanted to determine
what the human host body would become in the future, and perhaps
accelerate the process.”
That left the trio with the question of how Pelops managed to
accelerate the people’s growth cycle. Hesitantly, Daniel
theorized that Pelops might have created a virus, one that was spread
through bodily contact.
“Some are, and some are airborne,” Sam refuted argumentatively, not
wanting to believe that her commanding office had doomed himself simply
because he'd had a drunken one-night stand with Kynthia.
“But I think that this one isn't,” Daniel asserted.
“What has drawn you to this conclusion?” the Jaffa inquired.
“Because only one of us passed out last night, and that was Jack,”
Daniel answered, even as he felt the sting of his own failure to
protect his teammate. ~I wish I was wrong.~
====
“Found anything?” Jack asked as his three teammates cautiously
approached him, upon their return to the village.
Since they were surrounded by the Argosians, SG-1 went for a short walk
along the beach, reviewing their findings.
“Okay, Kids, you've gone all around the bush here,” Jack said as they
began to return towards the village. “What haven't you told me?”
“Well, it's ...”
“We still can't be certain, Sir,” Sam interjected when Daniel paused.
“Will someone just tell me ... please,” Jack requested anxiously.
It was twilight as Daniel and Sam finally briefed the colonel with
their grim findings. They finished just as they reached the
center of the village.
“You have to give them credit for one thing,” Daniel observed, hearing
the rhythmic music and seeing the Argosians dancing. “They do
enjoy life.”
“Perhaps it is because they do not have much life to enjoy,” Teal'c
offered.
“Great,” Jack snarked. “So now what you're telling me is this
virus, which, by the way, I do *not* have, is deadly?”
“Well, if the kids age five years in five days, what happens when they
reach a hundred days?” Daniel asked.
The team was just rounding the fountain when Jack began to slow.
~Crap! It's happening again,~ the colonel thought as he dropped
like a dead weight to his knees.
“Colonel!” Sam called out, bending down to help Jack just as he rolled
over to rest on his back.
In the short amount of time it took for Sam to remove Jack's
sunglasses, Daniel turned, seeing the villagers quickly lie down as
well.
“I guess it wasn't the cake,” Jack spoke with not a bit of surprise in
his voice, only disappointment.
“Maybe it was your physical contact with Kynthia,” Sam stated.
“Get back to Earth, Captain,” Jack ordered. “Figure this thing
out,” he added, falling asleep as the sun set.
“Okay, let's get our gear,” Sam ordered.
“No,” Daniel said. “I'm, uh ... he needs someone here. I
can ... study what's happening, talk to the villagers some more.”
“They're asleep,” the captain pointed out.
“I can still study the temple some more,” the archaeologist argued.
“Daniel ...”
“I'm not leaving him, Sam.”
Sam sighed and then nodded her head in agreement. After all, if
the team's theories were right, then time was of the essence and maybe
Daniel would find something useful buried in the writings of the temple.
====
“Don't you know how to follow an order?” Jack questioned the next day
when he'd awoken and found the archaeologist sitting nearby.
The two were walking towards the temple as they talked.
“You didn't give me an order,” the younger man pointed out.
“I don't need a babysitter,” Jack sniped. “And don't even try to
tell me that Carter didn't order you back to the SGC. *She* knows
how to follow orders.”
“Neither do I, need a babysitter, I mean; and, uh, you're older than
me,” Daniel said with a sly smile.
“That's not funny,” Jack groaned. “I may never look in a mirror
again.”
“You're not so bad,” Daniel stated, smiling nervously when Jack just
glared at him.
A couple of minutes later, the friends entered the temple, stopping in
front of the statue of Pelops.
“Troublemaker,” Jack mumbled.
“What?” Daniel asked.
“Nothing. So, learn anything?” the colonel asked, pointing around
the temple.
“Yeah, a lot,” Daniel answered. He sighed when the other man
looked at him hopefully. “But, uh, nothing about this. I'm
sorry.”
“Nah. This is my own doing,” Jack stated, walking away a few feet.
“I should have ...”
“Daniel, I went in that room with Kynthia, not you,” the colonel stated
bluntly, cutting off the younger man's words.
“But ...”
“I'm a grown man, Daniel. Kynthia's a pretty girl. I just
wasn't thinking,” Jack stated. “Bad command decision.”
“Command?” Daniel questioned incredulously. “You were drugged,”
he pointed out sternly.
“No excuse. I'm trained to ...”
“To be invincible?” Daniel challenged, closing the gap between
them. “Jack, what happened here wasn't your choice. If
anyone is to blame, it's me. I knew it was strange, but I just
sat there.”
“There was nothing you could have done to stop it,” Jack
maintained. “I like food; I ate it. I followed the pretty
girl into Eden.”
“Yes, there was something I could have done, and we both know it, so
don't cover up for me, Colonel,” Daniel stated, suddenly angry that
Jack was trying to take away the blame that was rightfully his.
“All I had to do was follow you inside, or just ... ask questions, but
I didn't.”
Jack saw his friend's bowed head. Daniel was also self-hugging
and hunched over a bit, as if trying to make himself as small in
stature as he believed himself to be in character. He walked up
to the archaeologist, facing the young man's back.
“Danny, I have to own this,” Jack confided more softly than before,
needing to take responsibility for what happened. “It was my
mistake, letting myself become a prize.”
“You were drugged, Jack, and I watched her take you into that
building,” Daniel said, turning around while continuing to keep his
arms crossed in front of him. “You can say whatever you want, but
the truth is something that's hard to escape.”
“I had sex with an alien: sounds like a movie title,” Jack spoke,
joking about the situation. “We'll get Tom Hanks to play me and
maybe Mary Steenburgen to the alien.”
~I don't believe this.~ Daniel looked away, rolling his eyes in
disbelief at just how nonchalant Jack was being. “No, you were
...”
“Daniel!” Jack interrupted, holding one hand up to stop the words from
being spoken, as if not saying them could change the reality.
“Don't say it; don't think it; and don't write it.”
“And what are you going to say?”
“That I was drugged, and it was a party gone bad. That *is* the
truth,” Jack put forth.
“What about Sam and Teal'c?” Daniel inquired.
“Teal'c's reports are all of fifty words; Kynthia won't even be a
footnote.”
“And Sam?”
“She'll write what she knows,” Jack asserted.
“I don't know what that means, Jack.”
“It means, Daniel, that I used bad judgement and ended up having sex
off-world. That's what the report will say.”
“Somehow I don't see Sam accusing you of bad judgement,” the
archaeologist replied.
“That's up to her, but, if she does, I won't deny it. Heck,
that's what is going to be in my report. Nothing else happened,”
Jack insisted, his mind having already convinced himself that anything
else was an outlandish stretch of the truth.
“Why? Because you're Special Ops and there's some ... code of
honor that says no one can ...”
“Daniel!”
Daniel paused and then completed, “... take advantage of you?”
“Do we have to talk about this?” Jack asked, feeling uncomfortable
about the discussion. ~Haven't we said it all?~
“Yes, we do have to talk about it,” Daniel insisted. “I *know*
what happened to you.”
“*Nothing* happened to me, except that some cute princess decided to
slip me a Mickey in a cake.”
“Okay, fine. Have it your way,” Daniel said, staring intensely at
his friend before he turned and walked away.
Jack sighed and, after a moment, walked over to the archaeologist,
saying, “Danny, I'm sorry. I don't want you feeling guilty about
something you didn't have control over, and you didn't have control
over this.”
“I think I did,” Daniel confided quietly.
Jack walked around the other man to face him and said, “Maybe, but, if
you did, then so did Carter and Teal'c. You want them to walk
around the rest of their lives blaming themselves? Let it go.”
Regretfully, Daniel nodded his silent agreement to go along with Jack's
view. Inside, though, he knew the truth. It was his
fault. He was the SG-1's so called cultural expert, not Sam and
not Teal'c. The colonel was right, though. If he let on
that he felt guilty, Sam and Teal'c would think they were at fault, too.
~It was just me, though. I knew what was happening; I know how it
feels; and ... and I'm his friend. I'm the one who should have
said something.~
====
Later in the day, while still working in the temple, the Stargate
activated. Excited and hopeful, Daniel ran down the stairs of the
platform towards a doorway on the other side of the temple, where Jack
was at the moment.
“Jack! Carter's coming back!” As he waited for his friend,
he realized that his friend looked even older than he had earlier in
the day. Most notably, his hairline had receded further.
“Jack.”
Sam, holding a large container, was shocked when she saw her commanding
officer, so much so that she gaped at him.
“Come on now, don't keep the elderly waiting. It's rude,” Jack
quipped, anxious to find out what she'd discovered at the SGC.
Putting the case she was carrying down, Sam informed, “It isn't a
virus.”
Unfortunately, neither Sam nor Janet Fraiser knew what it was,
either. What they did know was that Jack's blood sample showed
way more of the strange organisms than that of the Argosians and were,
in fact, multiplying.
“Which means?” Jack questioned.
“It ... it means the organism, or whatever it is, seems to be
compensating for your natural age. You've already lived way
longer than anyone with this, for lack of a better word, disease ever
should,” Sam responded.
“Cut to it, Captain,” Jack ordered sharply.
“At the rate you're changing, by the end of two weeks, you'll be the
equivalent of one-hundred-years old,” Sam revealed.
“So, in two weeks I'll be dead?” Jack questioned.
“Not if I can help it,” Sam refuted. “I'd like to set up a lab
here.”
~There's an answer; we'll find it,~ Daniel thought at the same time as
he stood off to the side, holding his notebook and papers down by his
hip with his right hand.
“Negative, Captain,” Jack stated, ordering the entire team back to
Earth after glancing over at the archaeologist. “We're not going
to bring another disease back through that Gate.”
“I will remain here, with O'Neill,” Teal'c offered, walking
forward. “I cannot be affected by ... whatever this is.”
“I don't need company, I need a cure,” Jack asserted angrily. He
added, “... and Daniel needs help translating that Goa'uld tablet
thing. It might hold the answer,” Jack stated.
“Jack ...” Daniel began, not wanting to leave.
The archaeologist was cut off by the colonel, who lashed out, “And
don't you dare say good-bye,” as he looked over at the younger
man. Then he told the entire team that they'd “better be coming
back.” He ended his remarks by ordering the trio to “... get out
of here, all of you,” after which Jack turned and walked away.
“The sooner we get back, the sooner we can find the cure,” Sam stated,
turning around.
“DanielJackson?”
Daniel walked several paces towards the path that Jack had just
departed. He had a bad feeling about leaving his friend.
Jack needed him. The uncharacteristic outburst was proof of that.
“I think I should stay here.”
“Daniel,” Sam said, walking over to her friend's side. “The
colonel's right. You need to translate the tablet.”
“I can do that here.”
“I believe O'Neill wishes to be alone,” Teal'c put forth.
“Maybe,” Daniel said, looking back towards the corridor again.
~But that doesn't mean that's what should happen.~
“We're wasting time, Daniel. We need to go,” Sam urged.
“I'll be right back,” Daniel said hurrying off.
“Daniel ...” Sam called out helplessly, walking forward a few steps and
then raising her hands up into the air and looking back at the Jaffa
while shaking her head.
Without looking back, the archaeologist called out, “Or go, and I'll
follow.”
Sam looked over at Teal'c and said, “We'll give him a few minutes.”
“DanielJackson and O'Neill are very close,” the Jaffa observed.
“Yeah, I guess they are,” Sam said, walking over to the platform steps
and sitting down.
====
“Jack!” Daniel called out, running up to his friend.
“Daniel, I told you to go back to Earth,” Jack barked, not stopping his
motion forward.
“I know, but ... Jack, wait,” the archaeologist said, tugging on the
older man's arm in an uncharacteristic display of physical contact,
especially when he didn't let go of his hold once the colonel stopped
walking.
Jack stared at his young friend and then down at his arm.
“Oh, uh, sorry,” Daniel said as he finally released his grasp.
“Jack, it's just ...”
“Danny, I know,” Jack spoke a bit emotionally.
“Just hear me out,” Daniel requested. “We said we weren't going
to bring another disease back through the Gate; well, then, that should
mean we all stay, or we all go.”
Jack smiled, reaching out to pat the young man's right shoulder.
He patted it twice, and then clutched the material, rubbing on it a
bit, as if caressing it.
“Follow my orders,” Jack spoke softly. Realizing he was still
gripping Daniel's arm, he let out a tiny chortle of a sound and let his
hand drop to his side. “Now, please ... go. Then come
back.” More firmly, he stated, “Make *sure* you come back ...
with the cure.”
Daniel smiled and nodded, watching as Jack walked away from him again.
“We'll be back,” the archaeologist called out.
“Bring Froot Loops,” Jack shouted in a huskier voice than was normal,
his left hand waving a goodbye at his teammate.
“Froot Loops. Right,” Daniel said, sighing and heading back for
the temple to return to Earth.
====
At the SGC later that day, Sam made a startling discovery. The
abnormal organisms in Jack's blood weren't multiplying, but were
replicating, which meant that the objects weren't living organisms, but
were actually some kind of mechanical devices. They were, in
reality, nanotechnology, something Janet knew nothing about.
Sam, however, did have some applicable experience.
“When I was at the Pentagon, I worked for a year with a group that
studied nanotechnology. We were looking at it for a lot of
different uses; one of them was medicine: creating artificial immune
systems, repairing individual cells; even manipulating DNA to stop the
aging process,” the captain expounded.
“It sounds like Pelops succeeded in what you were experimenting with,
only in reverse. Nice guy,” Janet replied sarcastically.
====
Meanwhile, on Argos, Jack was trying to deal with his rapidly aging
body. Sitting on Pelops' throne, he vented his anger by telling
the statue of Pelops exactly what he thought of him.
“Can you really talk to the great Pelops?” Kynthia interrupted, leaning
around to look at Jack from behind the back of the statue.
“Sure; why not? Just a piece of rock. Not so great,
anyway,” Jack replied bitterly, his tone sharp and full of edge.
“Your people: they have gone?” the woman inquired as she walked to
stand a few feet in front of the colonel.
“Yeah, they've gone,” Jack replied. ~Should have let Daniel
stay. I miss arguing with him. I always know I'm alive when
Daniel is around ... because he drives me out of my mind ... sometimes.~
“Then, you will leave also?” Kynthia asked.
“No, I'll be here for a while,” Jack answered.
“I am glad,” Kynthia said happily as she settled down on the pillows at
Jack's feet, placing one hand on his knee. “I would like to learn
of your customs.”
~Is she for real?~ Jack thought. “Maybe some other time,
huh? Kinda got a lot on my mind.”
“But you ate the marriage cake, came to my bed ...”
Surprised, Jack echoed, “Marriage cake?” ~Okay, what's the deal
here?~ After Kynthia nodded, he questioned, “Kynthia, you thought
we were married?”
Warily, the woman answered, “By all our customs, yes.”
“Sweet,” Jack said with a sigh. ~You drugged me and now you say
we're married. Great culture you've got here,~ he thought in
disbelief. “Kynthia, wh...what you were feeling wasn't really
love. That takes time. I mean, you can't get to know
someone in one day.” ~Not to mention that I'm already married and in
love with my wife.~
“Unto every woman the creator gives one hundred blissful days,” Kynthia
stated, looking serene and euphoric.
Impatiently, Jack barked, “Kynthia, will you stop that? Your
creator was not a god, and he certainly didn't give you life. He
took it away.”
“We are the Chosen. He made this place for us ... to be happy, to
love.”
“To be experimented on,” Jack interrupted angrily. “I mean, look
at me! I'm forty-years old, or I was. That's ... thousands
and thousands of days.”
Kynthia refused to believe Jack, becoming emotional until she
eventually ran out of the temple in tears.
“Go ahead -- run!” Jack shouted a moment later. “Okay, maybe she
doesn't deserve the anger; maybe she's just a product of this place and
that stone fake over there. Calm down, O'Neill. Stop being
so crotchety, even if you are a crotchety old man.” He grimaced
and thought, ~Did I say forty?~ Shaking his head, he sighed, ~The
mind is the second thing to go.~ He laughed, “Right now, I'd
settle for being forty again.”
====
“I thought you'd still be here,” Sam said, entering Daniel's office
late that night.
“There's nothing here, Sam,” Daniel said about his translations.
He got up and walked over to the coffee pot that lived in his office,
refilling his white mug. “Anything new?”
“No. You saw what happened this afternoon,” Sam stated as she sat
down on a stool. “The nanocytes ate right through the rubber
gloves, trying to spread. We have to be extremely careful.”
She paused and then asked, “How did he sound?”
The SGC checked in with Jack before the sun set on Argos. Daniel
and Teal'c had been in the control room to make the report.
“He barked a lot,” Daniel said. “It's all a cover up.”
“Janet's getting some sleep; we probably should, too,” Sam stated
hesitantly.
“I just want to do a couple more pages,” Daniel said, sitting back down
at his desk.
Sam began to suggest that Daniel should sleep, too, but she had a
feeling she'd be wasting her time. Truth was, she thought she
would be wasting her time trying to sleep as well, but she was so tired
she felt she at least needed to try. At the moment, her brain
felt sluggish, and she couldn't afford that. Jack was on borrowed
time now, and everyone knew it.
“I'll touch bases with you in the morning,” the captain said, standing
up.
Sam saw a slight nod from her friend, but that was it. He was
hard at work, trying to solve a puzzle.
====
The next day, Jack was again sitting on what was Pelop's throne.
His hair was almost white now and had grown to the length of his
shoulders. His skin was extremely wrinkled and etched with age
marks. In his hands, was a notebook and pen.
~Have some guts, O'Neill,~ Jack urged himself. ~Tell her the
truth: that you were an idiot, that you're sorry, and ... tell her that
you love her and want her back. Come on: write the words.
This is your last chance. Don't let her think you're ...~
Emotionally, and holding back tears, Jack let out one sniffle and then
reached to his right side and let the notebook and pen drop to the
floor, thinking, ~I can't do it to her now. It would be selfish.~
As the sound of the notepad hitting the floor was heard, Alekos
approached Jack, asking if the stories Jack had told Kynthia about
living for thousands of days were true. When Jack said they were,
he pleaded with the statue, asking why things were as they were.
As the two men talked, Alekos admitted that if he could, he would walk
beyond the village and boundaries of the Chosen. No one had ever
done that because their god forbade it; that was same god he was
certain would strike him down if he attempted to do such a thing.
He wanted to learn and to teach his people.
Jack felt encouraged by the Argosian's comments and mused, ~That's for
you, Dannyboy. I've challenged him to explore, just like you love
to do.~
Suddenly, Jack's joy diminished, turning into a sad melancholy.
He sat back, returning to his inner thoughts.
====
The next day, Kynthia searched for Jack, finding him sitting on the
platform, facing the Stargate, just staring at it. Jack's hair
was now completely white and hung past his shoulders.
“Come back to the village. It is not good to be always alone,”
Kynthia pleaded.
Without facing the woman, Jack replied, “Whatever time I have left, let
me spend it in my own way.”
Now, the colonel's voice cracked here and then as he spoke, the victim
of the age he appeared to be.
Walking up the steps and sitting on the top one, Kynthia refuted, “But
you do not spend it. You waste it.”
“I don't think reflecting on my life, or ... trying to figure out how
to get the rest of it back, is a waste.”
“You are angry.”
“Yes. Yes, I am. Aren't you, now that you know the truth?”
Jack challenged.
“What can we do but live in the way we always have? We do not
have thousands of days, but we treasure every moment,” Kynthia answered.
“I know, Kynthia, but in my heart ... I'm a military man, a
warrior. That's my life,” Jack said, looking away. “To
which my ex-wife will attest.” ~That's the first time I've said
that out loud; it sounds strange.~
“You love her still?”
~With every inch of me, and she's still my wife. Okay, she's
filed the divorce papers; I'm going along, for her sake. Why
didn't I fight for our marriage? It wasn't Sara's fault.
I'm the idiot who left the gun in the drawer,~ Jack thought, not saying
a thing or moving a muscle in response to the woman's question.
Then the man's thoughts drifted to Daniel and the way the archaeologist
had wormed his way through his defenses. It was still something
that surprised Jack whenever he thought about it. He knew, too,
that Daniel was supportive of his feelings for Sara. He
remembered back to their recent dealings with the unity crystal.
Afterwards, the young man had urged him to call Sara.
“And now, because of me, you will never see her again,” Kynthia stated.
~You got that right. I should be on Earth, fighting to get Sara
back, but because of this ... No, it's not Kynthia's fault,~ Jack
reminded himself. Patting her comfortingly, he spoke, “You meant
no harm.”
“Then let me give what I have taken. The time of one heartbeat
can become eternity,” Kynthia stated, leaning in and kissing Jack
gently a couple of times.
“Kynthia, I'm married. Or ... maybe I won't be for long, but
she's in my heart. I pushed her away for a long time; I won't
push her out of my thoughts now, when I may never have another chance
to remember her, to remember us.”
“I do not understand all you say. I know only that every day
should be a celebration.”
“Yes, well ...” Jack stood, saying, “Let's go back to the
village.”
====
Back on Earth, General Hammond had called a briefing. He had just
made a difficult decision.
Entering the conference room from his office, the two-star general
announced, “I'm canceling all work relating to Argos.”
“You can't do that,” Daniel objected.
“But, Sir,” Sam began at the same time from her spot next to the
archaeologist.
“Sir, I think we can ...” Janet began, the physician seated across the
table from Daniel.
“GeneralHammond ...” Teal'c began, speaking up from his position across
from Sam.
“I'm sorry, people. My decision is final,” the major general
declared as he sat down, interrupting their simultaneous refusals.
“Sir, neither of us show any evidence of the nanocyte,” Janet argued,
referring to herself and Sam and the testing that had gone awry the day
before.
“We can keep working here in *total* isolation,” Sam added.
“All blood and tissue samples are to be incinerated and
pulverized. Work on the Argos project stops now,” the general
ordered, rejecting the arguments.
“General, you are condemning Colonel O'Neill and the Argosians to
death,” Daniel stated forcefully.
“Captain Carter,” Hammond called out, looking over at the monitor that
displayed the nanocytes, “these things appear to possess artificial
intelligence. Correct?”
“Yes, Sir. That's the only way they could adapt their programming
to their situation,” Sam confirmed.
“Which means they could adapt themselves right out of this facility,”
the general deduced.
“Sir, if we destroy the samples, we will have *nothing* to work from,”
Sam stated strongly.
“I'm sorry. The risk is just too great. The order is
final,” Hammond said, standing up, causing Sam and Janet to stand as
well.
Angrily, Daniel called out, “Sir!” When the general turned, the
archaeologist stated slowly and emphatically, “We cannot just leave him
there.”
“Doctor Jackson, Colonel O'Neill is one of the finest men it has ever
been my pleasure to serve with. It will be a great loss to this
country and to all of us in this room, but I am *sure* he would not
hesitate to make the same decision for himself that I am making now,”
Hammond said before walking away.
“We have to do something,” Daniel stated.
“There's nothing we can do, Daniel,” Sam stated a bit emotionally.
“I don't believe that.”
“You have a plan, DanielJackson?” Teal'c questioned.
“No,” Daniel stated, standing and walking speedily out of the briefing
room. ~Not yet,~ he thought as he headed for his office.
====
“Daniel ...”
“Why is it so easy for you to go along with this?” Daniel asked the
blonde. He turned to Teal'c and questioned, “And you, too?
He saved you from being a slave, and you're not going to do anything
now that he needs your help?”
“What is it you would have me do, DanielJackson?” the Jaffa questioned
calmly.
Daniel banged his hands on the lab table out of frustration. With
a burst of angry energy, he pushed some papers off the desk, needing to
do something.
“Daniel, we all want to go back, but you heard what General Hammond
said,” Sam spoke quietly.
“Yes, and he's condemned Jack to death,” Daniel stated. He
laughed nervously and said, “And now we're supposed to send Jack this
... 'bon voyage' tape?”
“It's the only way to tell him,” the captain stated.
“Let's just do it,” Daniel said, walking to the door and waving in the
airman who had been instructed to capture SG-1's good-bye to their
commander.
====
“Well ...” Jack said, staring at the event horizon and the package that
had just been tossed through. “Not good news.”
The colonel walked over and opened the package, discovering a small
video communicator. As he ambled over to the throne of Pelops, he
pressed 'play'.
“Hello, Sir,” Sam began. “There's a lot to report.”
“He won't let us come back,” Daniel interjected loudly.
Jack smiled, thinking, ~Not happy about it, are you, Dannyboy?
I'll bet the general's seen that not-so-meek side of you that most
people think doesn't exist.~
“We're working with computer simulations and practical simulations.
Realistically, Sir, I'm afraid it might take years,” Sam reported.
A little calmer now, Daniel spoke, “The general says that Gate travel
to Argos is strictly off-limits for the next few, uh, millennia ... but
we can send objects through, so if you need anything, just ...
call.” He looked over at the Jaffa and instructed, “Say
something.”
“Colonel, I've learned very much from you. Thank you.”
“You know, goodbyes really suck,” Sam stated.
“I'm not saying goodbye,” Daniel stated, his eyes communicating as much
as he could on the tape without saying more.
“That's one pissed and pain-in-Hammond's-neck archaeologist,” Jack
observed. “Go to it, Danny!” He let out a sound and found
himself replaying the message. ~Maybe just one more time.~
====
The next day, Jack looked even older. His hair was longer, and he
hunched over more as he walked. His skin showed his additional
years.
Sitting on the throne, the aged colonel was stunned when the Argosians
entered the temple and began placing food and offerings all around the
statue of Pelops. They were asking the pretender god for help in
understanding their situation. Incensed, Jack stood up, walked to
where the Argosians were, and grabbed one of the dishes, throwing it to
the floor, causing it to shatter. He shouted at the people that
Pelop's didn't care about them and that he had kidnapped others like
them to be his slaves.
“Pelops thinks of us as his slaves?” Alekos asked, shocked by the words
he'd heard. Looking around at his people, he announced, “Then I
will no longer be one of the Chosen.”
After a few gasps, Thetys tearfully agreed, “Nor will I.”
Once the shock settled, Jack said, “You really ought to get rid of this
thing.”
“Get the ropes!” Alekos encouraged.
Soon, the people had toppled the representation of the false god, the
statue crashing into pieces. At first, they were frightened,
fearing retribution, but when nothing happened, they realized, at last,
that Jack was right and joyfully embraced one another.
Kynthia looked up at Jack. He patted her shoulder supportively,
after which she placed her hand over his, causing the man to let out an
internal sigh.
~Try to give a little support, and she always tries to take it
further. Nice kid, a victim, too, but what does it take for her
to get the hint?~ Jack asked himself. ~Well, I guess there's no
harm. I'll never see Sara again. Danny ... SG-1 is gone.
Sitting in that temple, watching that goodbye, isn't exactly doing me
any good.~ He got up and walked outside with the people. ~Danny.~
“You are sad?” Kynthia questioned. “We have destroyed the statue,
as you wished.”
“You did it for you, Kynthia.”
“But why are you sad?”
“I'm an old man on a planet of strangers,” Jack answered truthfully.
“We are not strangers. You ate of the marriage cake and ...”
“Kynthia, I told you about that. It wasn't my choice,” Jack
stated more bluntly than ever, a little annoyed by the woman's refusal
to understand that what she had done was wrong.
“You are sad because of us?”
“There is no us, Kynthia, but ...” Jack groaned and then
continued, “I was thinking about a friend. He's, ah ... never
mind.”
It was twilight now as the two walked along the beach. Jack was
holding Kynthia's hand, needing the extra support for the walk along
the tricky sand.
“Nice beach,” Jack commented. ~Too bad I'm too old to really
enjoy it. I wonder if Danny likes the beach? Danny,~ he
sighed, thinking of his friend and the way his death would affect
him. ~Maybe Carter will help him. He hides behind those
books of his, and I'm still discovering why; and that guilt complex of
his. Crap, he's gonna add this to that mountain of blame he
attaches to himself for everything. I need to find out why he
does that, too. I have my suspicions, but there's so much more to
be discovered.~
“You are still sad,” Kynthia said.
“Thinking about my friend,” Jack replied, not saying anything for
another minute or so. Finally, he determined that he needed to
snap out of it. He'd wallowed in depression after his son had
died, but he'd learned to live again after meeting Daniel
Jackson. He knew his team would be back, someday. When they
did, if Daniel learned that Jack died in that state of depression,
languishing in nothingness, that the guilt the younger man had placed
on himself would increase. Not wanting that, he decided to ~suck
it up~ and try to be more positive in his final days. “So, you
like older men, do ya?” When the woman froze in place, he asked,
“What is it?”
Fearfully, the woman spoke, “We should go back. We have gone too
far from the village. Pelops forbids it.”
“He's gone, Kynthia. He's gone. It'll be okay.
Promise,” Jack replied. ~Forgive me, Sara. Daniel is big on
forgiveness. I'm doing this for him. I hope you understand
that.~
====
On Earth, very late that night, Daniel used his key to enter Jack's
country-style home. He'd only recently, and if he was honest with
himself, a little reluctantly, moved out into his own apartment.
He loved this house and the memories he'd made here. Living with
Jack had been the closest thing Daniel had had to a real home since his
parents died when he was eight.
The anguished archaeologist walked through the darkened house without
turning on any lights. There was some moonlight filtering through
the windows, though, since Jack hadn't closed the curtains before
leaving. He sat down on the sofa, remembering some of the time
spent with the house's owner. They'd had a lot of fights in this
house, but Jack had taught Daniel that fighting didn't mean the end of
their friendship. That was still a hard lesson for the young man
to live with. His life experiences had proven the opposite, but
his recent dealings with Jack were changing his mind.
Now, with Jack gone, Daniel was certain he'd never trust anyone
again. Of course, he wasn't sure exactly why he even trusted
Jack, but he did. He'd trusted him almost from the first moment
he'd seen him, and that was odd, since Jack had had absolutely no use
for the archaeologist at that first meeting, except, of course, for the
progress he could make in opening the Stargate and thus allowing the
intended suicide mission to proceed.
~I let him down. Gawd, I really don't belong on SG-1,~ Daniel
thought, his doubts and insecurities taking hold. ~Sam didn't do
anything, either,~ he attempted to rationalize, failing
miserably. ~She's a subordinate; she couldn't do anything; and
Teal'c? Who knows? He's from a different culture. It
was up to me. All I had to do was say something, insist on
knowing what was going on.~
Daniel stood up and began to pace the room. Suddenly, he banged
down with his fists onto the back of the sofa.
“I knew what he was doing. I was just too ... embarrassed to
question him about it,” the archaeologist spoke aloud.
“Why? Because I didn't want him to think I was ... some geeky
stick-in-the-mud square?”
The young man sighed, full of regret, anger, and sadness. No
matter how he looked at it, the colonel's predicament was entirely his
fault. As the team's cultural expert, it had been his
responsibility and failure to stop Jack from being led away from the
team. He was to blame for allowing his friend to be seduced by
Kynthia during the dance, and he was in error for not breaking through
the Argosian 'wall' of people to try and wake his friend from the dazed
trance of the drug he'd ingested. Now, Jack was dying, alone, on
a faraway planet. All because Daniel was afraid of being
embarrassed and being teased.
“I let you down, Jack. If I get another chance, I won't ever do
it again.”
Daniel crouched down, burying his head into the back of the sofa.
He felt tears running down his cheeks. Slowly, he collapsed to
the carpet, turning to sit with his back to the sofa. His heart
was in his throat, and his soul felt unworthy of anything good.
~What?~ Suddenly, the archaeologist blinked, seeing a book on one
of the shelves. Edging to the side a bit so that the moonlight
bounced at just the right angle off the volume, he managed to read the
title of the book. ~I don't remember seeing that here
before.~ He mumbled the title out loud: “The Decline and
Fall of the Roman Empire.”
After a minute of just staring at the title, Daniel stood up and walked
over to the bookshelf, pulling the book out and thumbing through it,
wondering if he had remembered accurately. He read the relevant
passages and then looked forward before closing the book with a
bang. Looking at his watch, he pondered the date: June 9.
~I believe in science, and this isn't scientific, but I'm just thinking
that ... well, it couldn't hurt. Besides, I need to stay busy,
and I know if I sleep, I'll just have nightmares about how I've failed
with Jack.~
Daniel went to the kitchen and perused the shelves. He wouldn't
be able to do much, but he'd improvise and do the best he could with
what he had at hand. Seeing an unopened package of banana bread,
he took it and opened it, placing it on a platter he retrieved from one
of the cupboards. Checking the spice rack, he pulled out a bottle
of bay leaves and sprinkled it over the banana bread.
Next, the archaeologist went upstairs, going to the hall closet where
he knew Jack had some long-burning candles. He selected the one
that looked like it had the longest life to it and then went back
downstairs, where he placed the candle in the center of the fireplace,
which he figured was both the safest and most appropriate place for
what he had in mind. Then he went outside and picked a few of the
flowers from the many plants that surrounded the home.
~It's crazy, but at least it's keeping my mind occupied,~ Daniel
thought as he arranged the flowers in a semi-circle in front of the
hearth. Retrieving the bread from the kitchen, he placed it in
the center of the semi-circle, halfway between the fireplace and the
border of the flower arrangement. Finally, he lit the candle and
sat back. “Okay, Vesta, do your thing. I messed up. I
need some help, so ... keep the fire burning, and I'll try and find a
way to fix it.”
Daniel crawled back, settling against the back of the sofa once
again. He closed his eyes and began to focus his mind in a
visualization of cleansing. He'd learned the technique on a dig
once and invoked it now, picturing all the bad in life just dissipating
into nothingness, leaving only the good. He tried hard to imagine
Jack walking cheerfully back through the Stargate.
Slowly, Daniel opened his eyes, staring at the flickering flame in the
fireplace.
“I'm sorry, Jack. I don't know what else to do. Gawd, I'm
pitiful,” the young man bewailed as he lay down on his side in despair,
eventually falling asleep.
====
On Argos, Jack and Kynthia were playing games. Suddenly, Jack
realized it was dark and that they were both still awake.
“We should have been asleep.”
“I wasn't tired,” Jack stated as they walked back to the village.
“I didn't realize we'd gone so far.”
“The people will be rising when we return,” Kynthia pointed out.
“Maybe it'll be moving day,” Jack quipped, thinking back on his earlier
idea that the solution to the problem on Argos might be as simple as
relocation.
“Careful,” Kynthia said, holding Jack up by the arm as he almost fell.
“Dang knees. Their bad enough at forty, but at ninety, they're
barely making it,” Jack whined, nodding that he was okay and motioning
for them to continue on.
====
Early that morning on Earth, Daniel awoke. He saw the flickering
flame and reached over to put it out, but then he hesitated, reluctant
to extinguish the flame and what it represented just yet.
~I'll take a shower first,~ the young man thought.
Daniel went upstairs, undressed, and began his shower, his mind
rumbling with thoughts of Rome, Vesta, candles, and impossible
scenarios, like the one he was currently in.
~I need to get to Jack. There has to be a way, but I can't get
through the Stargate. General Hammond would never ...~
Daniel blinked, and his mouth opened. ~Could it be that easy?~
Quickly, Daniel finished his shower, dressed, and zoomed out of his
friend's house, eager to get to the SGC. He had a plan now, one
that would get him to Jack's side, but he had to get to Hammond early
enough to make it work. Timing was important. The
archaeologist knew the embarkation schedule for the next couple of
days, and there was only one real possibility for his plan to
work. He'd need to do some fancy talking to convince General
Hammond.
~Think, Jackson. You've got one chance here. Make it work.~
====
Just after dawn, Jack and Kynthia arrived back at the village,
observing that everyone else was still asleep. Jack quickly
deduced that whatever put the villagers asleep and then woke them up,
only worked in the vicinity of the village. Of key importance at the
moment was that apparently whatever it was that did control the sleep
cycle wasn't working any longer.
~That dang Pelops,~ Jack groaned. ~The statue!~
There had to be a connection to both situations and the fallen statue
of the false god; the timing just couldn't be coincidental.
Determined to get to the bottom of the mystery, Jack and Kynthia
returned to the temple, where the colonel noticed a light flickering
across the room, quickly realizing it was an electronic device that had
been hidden inside what used to be the base of the statue.
~Maybe I won't die here,~ the hopeful colonel thought. “Excuse
me. I've got a phone call to make,” he said as he carried the
device over to the Stargate.
====
“Daniel, I was hoping you could help me with ...” Sam paused,
seeing her friend packing his backpack. “What are you doing?”
“I'm going, Sam. I won't leave him there to die alone,” Daniel
stated. “If General Hammond doesn't want to let me come back
af... if he doesn't want to, that's fine. Just ... try and find Sha're
for me, okay?”
“Daniel, General Hammond isn't going to let you go through.”
Daniel just continued packing, loading his backpack with treasures that
only an archaeologist and linguist would treasure having on an
off-world paradise.
Frowning, Sam studied her teammate, knowing he had to have a plan; she
just couldn't imagine what it would be.
“Doctor Jackson,” Major Castleman called out as he entered the
office. “I understand you're joining us on our mission this
afternoon.”
“Uh, yes. Just ... evaluating,” Daniel said, explaining his
presence.
“SG-3 doesn't usually require an archaeologist,” Castleman stated.
“That's right,” Daniel stated. “But we're ... re-evaluating our
... evaluations.”
“We move out in fifteen minutes,” the major stated, nodding at Sam
before turning and walking out.
“Daniel, you can't do this.”
Stopping his actions, Daniel stared at his friend, asking her point
blank, “Are you going to turn me in?”
Sam stared at Daniel and sighed, “For what? Intending to defect
from a mission?”
“SG-3 doesn't need me,” Daniel stated. “I'll just tell them I'm
coming back to Earth.”
“But you'll really dial Argos.”
“When it's ... when, uh ...” Daniel couldn't say the words, his head
bowed from the emotions he was feeling. “I'll contact the
SGC. If the general won't let me return, then maybe you can send
some more of my stuff.”
Sam nodded and then surprised her friend by moving forward and hugging
him. Slowly, Daniel returned the hug, but he felt
uncomfortable. He cared about Sam, but physical touch was
something he'd protected himself against for a long time. Sometimes, it
was still hard to have Jack give him those supportive pats on the back
or arm. Still, this might be a permanent goodbye, so he allowed
the closeness, but only for a few seconds before pulling away.
The blonde smiled, saying nothing more as she turned and left the
office.
Looking around his office, Daniel put one final item into his backpack
and then headed for the locker room to change.
====
When SG-3 assembled in the gate room not long thereafter, Daniel looked
up at the control room. He saw Sam standing there, looking down
at him. She nodded, giving him a sweet smile. He returned
the nod and then looked at the vacant space in the circle of the
Stargate.
“Sergeant,” Hammond ordered, giving the man the instruction to go ahead.
“Yes, Sir,” Walter Davis acknowledged. He reached over to began
the dialing sequence when he heard the alert. “Sir, someone is
dialing us.”
“We don't have any teams scheduled to return or report in,” Hammond
noted.
Daniel blinked when the kawoosh of the Stargate blasted in front of
him. The blaring klaxons echoed in his ears as he wondered what
was interrupting his plan to join his friend on Argos.
“Close the iris,” Hammond ordered as a precaution.
“Sir, it's SG-1.”
“Colonel O'Neill,” Sam stated with a hope in her heart. She waved
to Daniel, motioning for him to hurry into the control room.
~Whatever this is, he'll want to hear.~
“Open the iris,” the major general ordered. A moment later, he
called out, “Colonel? This is General Hammond.”
“Sir, it's good to hear your voice,” Jack stated, just as Daniel
sprinted into the room.
Daniel's breathing hitched slightly. Jack sounded more feeble
than the last time he'd talked to him. He prayed there was still
time.
“Jack, what's wrong?” Daniel heard himself ask, shaking his head at his
own question.
“Nothing an enema couldn't cure,” Jack quipped, getting groans from
both Sam and Sergeant Davis.
“Colonel?” Hammond called out.
“Sir, I've found a device that was hidden in the statue of that Pelops
fellow. I think it's the key to what's happening here,” Jack
reported.
Sam and Daniel were both staring intently at General Hammond.
They both had the same expectant expressions.
“You have to let us go back, Sir,” Sam stated.
“General, this entire program owes Jack. We're going back,”
Daniel added without the least bit of hesitation.
“No one goes through that Stargate, Doctor, without my permission,”
Hammond stated, his eyes locked onto the archaeologist's. He
sighed and then said, “Get Teal'c. You'll embark just as soon as
you're ready.” He looked towards the Stargate and called out,
“Colonel, your team will be there shortly.”
“Thank you, Sir,” Jack said, disengaging the connection.
“SG-3,” Hammond began over the tannoy, “You're mission's been postponed
for one hour. Major, Doctor Jackson will not be accompanying you.”
Castleman nodded and left the room, following his team members out.
====
After walking through the Stargate, wearing their hazmat suits, SG-1
was shocked to see how old their team leader looked. Jack used
humor to try and cut through the shock and then led his friends to the
remains of the statue where he'd found the object.
“Daniel, what are you doing?” Sam questioned when she turned around and
saw the man removing his hazmat suit.
“I'm taking this off,” Daniel said simply.
“Daniel ...” Jack called out in warning.
“What?” Daniel said, his eyes communicating more than words could.
“This is where I found it,” Jack stated, walking by Daniel over to the
crumbled statue. On his way past the archaeologist, he tapped his
friend's arm in a silent thanks for the showing of solidarity, even if
he didn't really think it was necessary. “The drawer was on the
bottom.”
“I'll see what I can find out,” Sam said, kneeling down to examine the
area.
Jack turned, walking away a few feet, motioning for Daniel to follow
him.
“That was stupid,” the colonel stated.
“Only if I plan to have sex with one of the Argosians, and I don't,”
Daniel stated point blank. “How about you?”
The question seemed to have a double meaning as Daniel's eyes went over
to the doorway of the temple where Kynthia was now standing.
“Been there, done that ... once, not exactly by choice, and couldn't
now even if I wanted to,” Jack responded.
“What if you could?” Daniel challenged. After a moment, he shook
his head and put up his hand, saying, “Sorry. It's none of my
business.”
“Daniel, you're the only one I've really talked to about this,” Jack
spoke in a raised whisper. “You know where I stand.”
Daniel nodded, feeling strangely reassured by Jack's comment. He
was, indeed, still in love with Sara. He wouldn't betray that
love now, not even in this extraordinary circumstance.
“I'm sorry,” Daniel replied. “It's just ...” he paused, pointing
subtly at Kynthia.
“She likes to follow me around. She thinks we're married.”
“Married?”
“That cake is their version of a priest,” the colonel explained.
“I've tried to tell her to go find some young stud, but she keeps
coming back. No clue why.”
“It's your charm,” Daniel teased, earning him a stare from the older
man.
“Why fight it?” Jack questioned rhetorically. “Kynthia, you
remember Daniel -- the midwife.”
Daniel rolled his eyes as the woman came closer, and the two said their
hellos.
“I'd better ... go and see, uh, if Sam needs help,” the archaeologist
said. “Oh, this is ... only for you,” he semi-snarked, pulling
out a small box from his backpack and handing it to Jack.
~Snarky geek,~ Jack thought as he watched Daniel head over for where
Sam and Teal'c were working.
“What is that?”
“Froot Loops,” a smiling Jack spoke. “We'll wait over here,” he
said, walking slowly over to the platform steps and then opening the
box of cereal to eat it.
“You're angry I am here,” Kynthia spoke, shaking her head when Jack
offered her some of the colorful cereal pebbles.
~See how easy it was for her to say 'no'. You're an idiot,
O'Neill. You should have said 'no' to that cake the moment she
said it was only for me,~ Jack sighed. A bit frustrated, he
spoke, “Kynthia, I am not angry, but you shouldn't be here. You
should be out there, with someone who can love you. That's not
me.”
“They are asleep, remember?” Kynthia reminded. “My place is
here,” she insisted, sitting down by the colonel, her arm on his,
ignoring or not seeing Jack rolling his eyes.
====
Sometime later, the team and Kynthia were seated on the steps of the
Stargate, the device, hooked up to a computer, in front of Sam.
None of the team wore their hazmat suits any longer.
“I was right. It's a transmitter,” Sam reported.
“Uh, there were two sets of glyphs that were quite tough to translate
until Teal'c realized they weren't words,” Daniel spoke as he leaned
back against a few of the steps, rubbing his right thigh briefly.
“They were, in fact, numbers,” the Jaffa reported.
“Two different frequencies, one to put the villagers to sleep and to
activate the nanocyte, the second one to shut it all off for the day,”
Sam revealed.
“When you broke the statue, you must have damaged the wake-up call,”
Daniel supposed.
“Can you recalibrate this thing to wake these people up?” Jack asked.
“No, Sir, it's useless. I'm going to have to use the equipment
that we brought with us. I've loaded the frequency. I'm
switching it on now,” Sam spoke and then flipped the switch, causing
the equipment to light up and begin emitting a humming sound.
The team and Kynthia walked outside the temple, witnessing the
awakening of the Argosians. The inhabitants were frightened, but
were soon calmed by the team.
“We'll start doing tests,” Sam stated.
“How long before we know?” Jack questioned.
“Later today,” Sam answered confidently.
====
“Our tests indicate that your body has been cleansed of the machines
that plagued you,” Teal'c informed the Argosians later that day.
“I figure the immune system must attack them if they aren't operating,”
Sam stated.
Looking at Kynthia, Daniel spoke, “From now on, you and your people
should age at a normal rate.”
“What about Jack?” the woman asked with concern.
“Me? I'll probably move to Florida, get into a little retirement
home of some kind,” Jack replied.
Grinning, Sam responded, “You'd look pretty out of place there at your
age.”
“Why? I look like my grandfather,” Jack said a bit snarkily.
“'Look' is the operative word here,” Sam stated. “If our
hypothesis is right, the nanocytes in your system were only meant to
imitate aging. They weren't meant to start the process in a
full-grown adult.”
“What are you saying to me?”
“Well, without these little buggers in your system to maintain the
changes, you should return to normal within a week or two,” Sam stated.
“That is wonderful news,” Kynthia responded happily as she helped Jack
sit down when his knees gave out suddenly.
“I don't know. I was kinda looking forward to a little
shuffleboard with the fellas,” Jack quipped.
“Then you are leaving?” Kynthia asked.
~She's a slow learner,~ Jack thought as he faced straight ahead.
Sam understood the meaning of the gesture and motioned for Daniel and
Teal'c to walk away a few feet, giving Jack a chance to talk more
privately with the woman.
“You will not be staying with me then?” Kynthia asked.
“No, I won't,” the colonel answered.
“What will happen to us now if Pelops returns?” Kynthia questioned.
“I don't think that's going to happen, but just in case, we'll send
some folks by now and again to check up on you,” Jack stated.
~But it won't be me.~
“My heart would be glad if you were one of them,” Kynthia spoke
hopefully.
~And that's why it won't be me,~ the colonel thought. “Sweet
Kynthia, I've learned so much from you. I'll treasure every day
of my life, because of you,” he said, smoothly exaggerating the truth
of his experience on Argos and caressing her face gently. ~Danny
will approve. It's really from him I've learned how to forgive
like this.~
“For thousands of days?” Kynthia asked with an amused smile.
“I sure hope so,” Jack answered.
“That is almost forever,” the woman laughed.
“Almost,” Jack agreed. ~Okay, Danny, this is for you and your
lessons of kindness. I should win an Oscar for this.~ He
leaned forward and gave Kynthia a chaste kiss on the cheek. ~That
will have to do her.~
“Maybe you will change your mind.”
“No, no, I won't,” Jack assured. “My life, my family, my wife:
that's on Earth, not here.”
“Maybe I could come with you,” the woman proposed.
“No, Kynthia,” Jack said, shooting a 'help me' glance over to Daniel.
“Uh, Jack,” Daniel said, walking forward. “We need to get back.”
“You can stay another night.”
“No, he can't,” Daniel stated sharply. “I just mean ... General
Hammond expects us to get right back.”
“That's right, Colonel,” Sam stated, having stepped forward and figured
out what was happening. “You know how the general is about
orders.”
“Orders: can't break those,” Jack spoke, ignoring the irony of his
words. “Have a good life, Kynthia,” he said, standing up with
Daniel's help.
“Carter ... dial,” Jack said, wanting to get off the planet as soon as
possible.
“I will walk with you,” Kynthia offered.
“No, I ... want to remember you here, like this by the beach, *our*
beach,” Jack said, playing it up. As he turned around and began
walking towards the temple where the Stargate was, Daniel at his side,
he spoke out of the side of his mouth, “If I fall down, pick me up and
get me out of here.”
“No problem,” Daniel replied, glancing back and waving at Kynthia and
the other Argosians who were now watching them leave.
====
“Jack, it's good to have you back,” General Hammond spoke after the
debriefing had ended.
“Thank you, Sir,” Jack said.
There was a look exchanged between the two military soldiers. It
talked about choices, protection, duty, honor, and friendship, all at
the same time. Nothing more would ever need to be said about
Hammond's decision to potentially leave the leader of SG-1 stranded on
Argos. It just wasn't necessary.
“So, anyone up for a good game of shuffleboard?” Jack quipped as SG-1
walked out of the briefing room.
“I think Doctor Fraiser is expecting you in the infirmary,” Sam
answered with a bit of amusement.
“I'm too old to have a needle stuck in me; might die from being
pricked,” Jack spoke wryly.
“Or of being one,” Daniel snarked, earning himself a glare from the
older man.
“Don't you mean having one?” Jack retaliated, surprising the younger
man by invoking a somewhat vulgar and slang definition of the word.
“What are you talking about?” Sam questioned.
“Nothing,” Jack and Daniel said in unison as they reached the elevator.
====
“You're just fine, Colonel, for a man of ninety,” Doctor Janet Fraiser
reported at the conclusion of her examination. “Will you be
staying in one of the VIP rooms?”
“The general wants to make sure I don't keel over and die,” Jack mused
in affirmation of the question.
“It would be difficult to explain if any of Jack's neighbors saw him.”
“Say I'm my grandfather.” Jack looked down onto one of the silver
metallic trays in the infirmary, studying his image. “I look just
like him.”
====
“I could stay,” Daniel offered as he stood by the door of the VIP room,
his arms folded across his chest.
“Daniel, people would talk,” Jack teased.
“Oh, I just meant ...”
“Daniel, I was kidding. I'm surrounded by people who keep trying
to help me. Go home,” Jack mock-ordered.
Daniel nodded and said, “I'll see you tomorrow.”
“Shuffleboard,” Jack replied.
“Right,” Daniel said, uncrossing his arms and leaving the room.
====
“That's how he looked the day I returned to Argos after we did the
preliminary testing,” Sam reported.
“It seems to be reversing itself then in the exact time of the
progression,” Janet surmised.
“I'm a little surprised by that, Janet,” Sam replied. “I would
have thought it would take longer to reverse itself.”
“It's a foreign technology to us, Sam. What I'm concerned about
is how it effects the internal organs. That's a lot of dramatic
change, both ways, over the course of two weeks,” the redhead commented.
“True, but ...”
“Ladies, hello!” Jack said, raising his hand as he sat on the cot in
the infirmary. He'd been watching the exchange between the two
women like it had been a tennis match. “Can we just get to it?”
“I see the mind wasn't affected,” Janet teased as she took hold of her
stethoscope to begin the examination.
“Darn. I'd better get back to work. Good luck, Colonel,”
Sam said as she headed for the door. “Hi, Daniel,” she greeted as
the two scientists passed each other.
Daniel nodded as he walked by Sam and entered the infirmary,
immediately heading over to where Janet was doing her examination.
“I'm still alive,” Jack spoke, seeing his friend.
“You're looking ... good,” Daniel replied.
“Try saying that with more conviction next time.”
“This is, uh, like our third day on Argos,” Daniel reported.
“It's definitely reversing itself in the same time pattern as ...”
“We've been through that,” Jack interrupted, not wanting to hear a
replay of the discussion he'd already gotten a headache from.
Jack's stay on Argos had lasted seven days, beginning with the team's
initial arrival on the planet. This was his fourth full day
back. If things continued, he'd be back to his normal self in
just two or three more days.
“Well, I've got some news from General Hammond.”
“Will you get that out of my eye,” Jack requested emphatically, pushing
aside Janet's penlight, which was one medical tool that he had just
never liked and figured he probably never would. “Good or bad?”
“What?” Daniel asked.
“The news!”
“Oh, uh, well, the general said that if Janet gives the okay, we can
sneak you back into your house tonight, as long as you promise not to
go outside until you're completely back to yourself,” Daniel informed.
“Sweet!” Jack replied with a smile. “I'll be ready in five
minutes.”
“Aren't you forgetting something, Colonel?” Janet asked with a pointed
expression.
“Come on, Doc; be a sport.”
“I'll consider it once I'm done with my examination,” Janet
responded. “Daniel, if you don't mind ...”
“Oh, uh, sure. I'll talk to you later, Jack. Bye, Janet,”
the archaeologist said as he walked away.
====
At eleven o'clock that night, Daniel drove Jack to his home. The
older man was wearing a baseball cap and coat, with the collar upturned
to prevent anyone from getting a good look at him as he walked from the
driveway to the front door.
“It's good to be home,” Jack spoke as he walked in.
Daniel closed the door behind them and said, “Your mail is on the
counter, and I watered the plants, so everything is good.”
“Did you mow the lawn?”
“No,” Daniel replied.
“It must look like a field out there,” Jack remarked. “I hadn't
cut it in a couple of weeks before the mission,” he chuckled.
As his friend disappeared into the kitchen, Daniel suddenly became
aware of the fireplace and closed his eyes, thinking, ~Oh, crap!~
“I've been dying for a beer for two weeks,” Jack said as he walked back
into the living room and handed Daniel a beer, opening it. As he
turned, he realized why his archaeologist had looked so pale a second
ago. “Daniel, why is there a loaf of moldy bread in front of my
fireplace? Not to mention, some dead-looking flowers and a ...
candle?”
“Uh, it's a ... long ... st...story,” Daniel stammered.
While the younger man had been to Jack's house a few times since that
night to take care of things, he'd been rushed each time. In
fact, all he'd really had time for was to bring in the mail and water
the plants. He'd just been so preoccupied with things at the SGC,
including Jack's return to his youthful self, that he'd never really
thought about his impromptu shrine.
“I'm listening,” Jack replied, walking over to his favorite chair and
sitting down.
“Uh, well,” Daniel spoke hesitantly as he fidgeted with his beer.
“Before I'm ninety ... for real,” the colonel called out.
“It was actually your idea,” Daniel informed.
“It was?” Jack asked, grimacing. “Just *how* was it my idea.”
“Well, it was your book,” Daniel stated, hurrying to the bookshelf and
pulling out the item in question. “This one.”
“A friend of mine just gave me that,” Jack stated about the book of
Roman history.
“Yeah, well, it, uh ... got me thinking,” the younger man said as he
walked back towards the sofa, still carrying the book. “You see,
in ancient Rome, the Goddess Vesta was one of the Dis Consentes, which
was a group of twelve gods that were especially honored by the Romans.”
“This is gonna be good,” Jack spouted before taking a sip of his beer.
Daniel smiled nervously and then began a long lecture on the subject at
hand, saying at a rapid-fire pace, “Vesta was intertwined with the
fruits of the earth and sedentary farmers. This dates back to the
earliest Latin occupation in central Italy when Romans resided in
primitive huts. Each family had to propitiate the maternal spirit
that presided over the home. She was the last deity to be invoked
in any Roman religious custom. Over time, the rites evolved into
community events and then eventually were done on a state level, where
they were maintained by the Vestal Virgins, the, uh, female priesthood
of Vesta. Caesar built her a temple, but oddly enough, it didn't
really look like Vesta, not that anyone really knows what she looks
like, but that's neither here nor there at the moment.”
“Not sure I wish I were here at the moment, either,” Jack
quipped. “The bread,” Jack prompted.
“Right. Well, Vesta's temple was equated with the survival of
Rome. They kept some of the most sacred and valuable of objects
of the State there: wills, legal documents, the Palladium ...”
“Daniel, I feel my wrinkles coming back.”
“Right,” Daniel acknowledged again. “There was a flame kept
there, the sacred flame. To the Romans, it represented the
eternal flame of Rome's hearth. It never went out and was relit
annually on the first of March by rubbing two sticks together. It
was tended eternally by the Vestales, her priestesses.
Essentially, the Romans believed that for how ever long the flame would
burn, Rome would endure.”
“Someone must have been derelict in their duty,” the colonel pointed
out.
“They took it seriously,” Daniel responded.
“But what does that have to do with moldy bread and dead flowers?” Jack
asked with impatience.
Sitting down on the sofa and placing the book down next to him, Daniel
took a swig of beer, and then another, before continuing, “Vesta has
several festivals that honor her, even to this day. One of them,”
he sighed and took another swig of beer, “is Vestalia. Long story
short ...”
“This is short?” Jack spoke sarcastically.
Ignoring the verbal jab, Daniel continued, “Basically, on Vestalia, the
Vestal Virgins cleaned the temple. Offerings were made and ...”
“Daniel!”
“Vesta is still identified with the hearth, the proverbial home
fires. She's like the flame, warm, and she reminds her believers
that her flame is always near, always burning and always harboring the
universal strand of life,” Daniel spoke, speaking faster than Jack had
ever heard him talk before. “In ancient Rome, her days of
celebration fostered the sanctity of domus, mentis, and somes -- home,
mind, and body. Her flame is revered as a way of procuring
emotional and physical comfort, as a source of stability, and as a
conduit to penitis pax -- internal peace.”
“Daniel!” Jack practically screamed.
“It was a vitualamen, an offering,” the archaeologist sighed and then
took a very long drink of the beer. “Vesta's believers light a
candle and say a prayer to her on June 9.”
“Prayer?”
“Yeah, uh, something like the Homeric ...” Daniel began, quickly
running through the short verse: “Vesta exerioisti, Come, Vesta,
In is ea id domus formosus, To live in this beautiful home, Exerioisti
cum sensi ferventi ab hospitium, Come with warm feelings of
friendship. Aducera nous tui, Bring your intelligence ...”
“Cut to the chase, Daniel,” Jack interrupted.
Quickly, Daniel completed the prayer, this time speaking in English
only:
“Your energy and your passion
To join us with your goodwill.
Burn brightly at my hearth.
Burn always in my soul.
You are welcome here.
I remember you.”
As soon as he was done reciting the prayer and ignoring Jack's stare of
disbelief, the cultural expert moved on, saying, “They ... prepare
offerings of special foods ...”
“Banana bread?”
“I had to use what was in your cupboards,” the younger man
admitted. “They ... the believers, make a special place where
they can light the candles and place the offerings ... and meditate.”
“Banana bread?” Jack repeated again.
“Well, I didn't have time to make mola salsa. You had bread, and
a lot of believers make bread of different types. They use a lot
of special things, too, like juniper and bay laurel. You didn't
have any, so I just used bay leaves.”
“The flowers?”
“Violets,” Daniel stated. “I did the best I could.”
Jack got up and examined the offering more closely, shaking his
head. The candle, that had been quite large, was down to its end.
“It burned out,” the colonel observed. “Should I be dead?” he
chuckled.
“I needed something to think about other than what I was ... thinking
about,” Daniel confessed. “It just ... I had to do something, and
I felt ... helpless.”
~Crazy geek,~ Jack thought fondly as he looked at the remnants of the
now-not-so-delicious-looking bread. ~He must really have been
worried.~ He stood up, smiled, and said, “Thank you, Danny.”
“You probably think I'm crazy,” the younger man replied.
“Not any more than I did the day we met.”
“Oh,” Daniel expressed with a small smile.
Sitting back down, Jack took another drink of his beer and opined, “Aw,
yeah.”
Still fidgeting with his bottle, Daniel sighed and licked his
lips. Finally, he put the beer on the coffee table.
“Jack, about Kynthia ...”
“Didn't we cover this?” Jack asked, knowing what the topic was intended
to be and having no desire to go there, not even for a minute.
“I just ... if you ever need to talk, I'm ... here,” Daniel offered.
“Thank you, Daniel,” Jack replied with sincerity. Then he
asserted, “But there's nothing to talk about. Kynthia's a
beautiful woman, and I admit that nothing would have happened if she
hadn't drugged me; but she did, and it is what it is.”
“I guess the question is, what is it?” Daniel questioned.
“A fact of life that can't be changed,” Jack answered. ~Time to
move on.~ He leaned forward, saying, “Danny, I spent the first
couple of days there pretty much wallowing in my losses, but then I
thought about you.”
“Me?” Daniel almost squeaked in disbelief.
Jack nodded and explained, “You're one of the most forgiving people
I've ever known. I forced myself to think of the Argosians as
victims, doing only what they knew. Kynthia was an innocent
victim, so I did what I figured you'd want me to do.”
“You forgave her.”
“And the Argosians for thinking that that monster was a god. Even
after everything I told them, they were still afraid of that ...” Jack
began, about to spend several minutes spouting negative slurs towards
the false god.
“But you helped them get through that. You put your own feelings
aside,” the younger man surmised, stopping the onslaught of bad Goa'uld
names before it could get started.
“Don't make me out to be some saint, Danny, because I'm about as far
from being one as a person can be. I just tried to do what you'd
want me to do. I was stuck there. I didn't think I'd live
for more than a few more days. Why should I make them feel bad
for the rest of their ... hundred days?” Jack put forth.
“I didn't think that you actually listen to me,” Daniel stated.
“Don't get used to it,” Jack teased, taking another drink of his
beer. “Chess?”
“Yeah,” Daniel said, ready to forget the lateness of the hour just as
his friend was, preferring to do something instead that lent itself to
normalcy.
====
“You're cleared for duty, Colonel,” Janet spoke, making some notes on
her medical chart.
“Thank you, Doc,” Jack said as he hopped off the bed and headed for the
general's office, anxious to get back into action.
Visually, Jack had returned to his proper appearance two days earlier,
but Janet was being cautious, wanting to do a full-scale physical to
ensure that, internally, the colonel was just as healthy as he was
externally.
“Castleman, how's it going?” Jack asked as he passed the major.
“Fine, Colonel,” the man said as he walked by. Suddenly, he held
up his finger and spun around, calling out, “Colonel O'Neill.”
“Hmmm?” Jack responded, stopping and turning to face the other man.
“Will Doctor Jackson be joining SG-3 on an evaluation mission?”
“Evaluation?”
“Apparently, he was supposed to check us out and decide if we needed an
archaeologist on the team,” the major informed.
“SG-3 is a combat unit,” Jack pointed out.
“Yes, Sir,” Castleman acknowledged. “He said they were
re-evaluating the needs of my team, but I haven't heard anything about
it since he backed out of the mission. Colonel, I really don't
think it would be appropriate for a scientist to be part of SG-3.
Colonel Makepeace agrees, and ...”
“When was that mission scheduled for?” Jack asked, cutting off
Castleman's statement.
“I believe it was the day you sent the transmission through about that
device you found.”
Jack nodded and replied, “I doubt there's a need for it, but I'll check
into it.”
====
“Oh, General,” Jack called out. His meeting with Hammond was
over. SG-1 was back in the regular rotation, and Jack had been
brought up to speed on events that had occurred since his time on
Argos. He cocked his head to the side, his hands extended out in
front of him just a couple of inches, as he asked, “Do you know
anything about this re-evaluation of whether or not there should be an
archaeologist on SG-3?”
Nodding, Hammond answered, “Doctor Jackson requested it while you were
gone. He felt it was necessary to get a first-hand point of view, and I
didn't see any reason to interfere with his decision.”
“Interfere?”
“Dismissed, Colonel.”
“Yes, Sir,” Jack responded warily, blinking once and then slowly
backing out of the bald-headed man's office. ~Okay, just what
were you up to Daniel?~ he pondered as he walked. ~Why would you
...~ He sighed, ~For crying out loud.~
====
“Daniel ...”
“Hey, Jack,” Daniel said, looking up from his desk where he had some
notes on Norse mythology spread out.
Jack picked up a piece of paper, crumbling it into a ball and began
tossing it back and forth in his hands.
“Uh, those are ... notes,” Daniel pointed out.
“Nothing important then,” Jack smirked.
Daniel sighed, shaking his head.
Looking at the paper ball as he played with it, Jack spoke, “Major
Castleman is anxious to know when you'll be going on that re-evaluation
mission.”
“Oh, that,” Daniel spoke quietly as he fidgeted with his pen while
looking a little embarrassed.
“I told him you'd be happy to spend a full month with SG-3,” Jack said
as seriously as he could.
“Uh, actually, that was just a ... a temporary idea, but I ... well, I
don't really think it'll be ... necessary.”
“I wouldn't want you to sacrifice the health of your department.”
“No, really, it's not ... I mean, I ... it was just a passing thought,”
the archaeologist stated.
“We could get by without you. I'm sure you're just *dying* to
accompany SG-3,” Jack challenged.
“Not really,” Daniel replied. For a moment, he wondered if maybe
Jack wanted him to switch teams. His self-doubts and fears
threatened to take him to an emotional low. He wondered if
perhaps the colonel did blame him for the events on Argos.
Holding in his insecurities, he added, “I'd just as soon not ... now.”
“It wouldn't be a problem.”
~Maybe he sees now how badly I failed him on Argos. I let him
down, no matter what he says. Maybe ...~ Daniel was about
to give in to his guilt when he caught a gleam in his friend's
eyes. Jack was just playing with him. ~Or is that just what
I'm hoping to see?~
“I'll type up the transfer papers myself,” Jack offered.
“No, it's okay,” the younger man said, bobbing his head up and down
rapidly and trying to believe the other man was just teasing.
Jack looked at his friend, brown eyes meeting blue eyes intently for
several seconds, and then expressed, “You never cease to amaze me,
Daniel. SG-3 will have to go on without you. You're on
SG-1, and that's where you belong.” He could swear his
archaeologist let out a sigh of relief. ~Geez, he's still
doubting himself. We'll have to work on that,~ he
determined. “Thank you, Daniel.” He tossed the ball back to
the archaeologist, teasing, “Just in case it is important.”
Turning and going to the door, he called out, “Oh,” as he twisted
around. “Hammond knew what you were going to do.”
“No, he ...”
“Oh, yes,” Jack confirmed. “I thought you'd want to know
that.” He tapped on the doorframe and then said, “Chinese.
1600 hours. Don't be late. I plan on beating you at Chess
tonight.”
“You're a glutton for punishment, Jack.”
Jack nodded and then smiled before heading for the door.
“Oh, Jack,” Daniel called out. When the colonel stopped, the
archaeologist smirked, “The boonie: it really doesn't work for
you. Stick to the baseball cap.”
Jack chuckled and then walked out, whistling as he proceeded through
the gray corridors of the SGC. It felt good to be forty-something
and alive, and it felt even better to have a certain geeky and
extremely loyal archaeologist as his friend.
Daniel smiled, too. He straightened out the paper ball and smiled
again. Only Jack O'Neill could get away with that, and Jack
O'Neill was back. Still smiling, he returned to his work, feeling
good that his goofball of a good friend was home again, safe and
healthy.
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